It goes like this: me thinking, “What’s it all for?/ What’s the bloody point?/ I haven’t done anything I like and I don’t have a clue what to do next/ I’m a completely empty shell.” 

This lasts two days or so… Then I suddenly notice — apropos of something very minor, like the way a plane crosses the sky, or the smell of trees, or the light in the early evening, or remembering one of my brother’s jokes — that I am thoroughly enjoying myself and completely, utterly glad to be alive. Not one of the questions I asked myself has been answered. Instead, like all good philosophical questions, they’ve just ceased to matter.

-Brian Eno

 

Beyond the difficulty of communicating oneself, there is the supreme difficulty of being oneself. This soul, or life within us, by no means agrees with the life outside us.

-Virginia Woolf

 

 

 Ive been watching Better Call Saul again and this is one of my favorite scenes

https://www.reddit.com/r/betterCallSaul/comments/fkm4lc/a_minute_of_comedic_gold/

Kim decides to oblige Jimmy and goes all-in. 

In response; Jimmy finds her especially attractive and asks her to take a shower with him.

I think this exchange highlights the profound beauty of completely letting our guard down and being seen. Is that it? I don't know. Im trying to understand why this scene is so impactful. I would love to hear more thoughts.  Anyone willing to share?

 I had an argument with my mom recently. 

At the emotional crescendo of the exchange, I dont remember what what she asked, but my response was "because im ugly and unlovable."

I yelled it at her.

Do i truly believe this? 

Unfortunately, I do.